Life isn’t the fairy-tale I’ve been sketching in my mind huh?
Well, allow me to go out there, find it, and don’t ever settle for anything less than just that… “i hope you’re not lonely without me”
Life isn’t the fairy-tale I’ve been sketching in my mind huh?
Well, allow me to go out there, find it, and don’t ever settle for anything less than just that… “i hope you’re not lonely without me”
Ally McBeal You know what makes my problems bigger then everyone else’s? They’re mine.
well yes…
ugh… I *should* probably go back to what i was doing.. but …. ugh!! the hell! I’m sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I-don’t-even-know-how-to-describe-myself-right-now!!!!
so… what to do when words *just* aren’t enough?! IMAGES! yes!!
I’ll let this lovely lady here let do all the sweet talking:
(feelssss as of now):
clear enough???…. are we in the same page now??…. we are yeah… ok.. now walk with me s’il vous plaît.
Actually, before I even start… WHAT’S WITH THE WORDPRESS EDITOR TODAY??!! gee I’m writing this in a 3″ dialogue box!
(just be zen…. just…yeah just try…. aha… zen….. ok, try and be zen.. maybe?…..)
(ok breathe…….write….now….explanations…. GO!…)
(….)Thing is, there’s nothing really and at the same time there’s a lot of things i guess.. I’ve been looking for a job for the past… ahem… 6 months maybe..
Issue seems to be I don’t really know where to ap … nah, (break) my mind is just too ->
QUICK UPDATE: One thing down.. I just found a “work around” to the itsy-bitsy screen.. 😀 i guess HAHA
where was I…. oh yeah, the work thing (or the no-work thing I should say), well yes, I’ve send applications like crazy (to jobs I consider myself to be a great fit for). So far I have received a few rejections (4 maybe), nothing to bad.. the main issue here is that the majority of the positions are just
yeah i don’t know if I want to continue writing this post anymore…. I actually don’t know what I’m writing about…. i have experience in my field, I am an honest, capable, responsible employee.. (yes i am).. so… yeah I guess I just have to keep sending job applications and.. well, hoping for the best.. so far I can’t think of anything better to do.
UPDATE TWO: It was actually a good idea to give myself a break from the day and just stop for a little while with this “hunt”.. it was seriously getting on my nerves.. I mean, I can (most of the time) handle stress pretty well, (i can show you vouchers 😉 ha!).. it’s just that sometimes one can get a bit frustrated ….(and now i’m going to stop writing about it..) enough to say I took a breathe, and i’m feeling much better now..
LAST THING: Tomorrow i’ll be going to a Concert…. my Teenage self just can’t keep her emotions under control due to the awesome-fact that she’ll finally be seeing her all time favorite band! HAHAHA BACKSTREETBOYS baby!!!
–Music used on this session: The Distillers and Skrillex
::writing does great things for me::
k, over and out..
xx
Here i am, I had forgotten how much I like to be on my Computer (not just online on any internet device, but actually in My Computer!) feels really cozy in here (˘‿˘ʃƪ)
allow me to set the mood for you with some Punk!
right now? Ramones, prior to that, a mix of The Distillers, NOFX, Misfits and Dead Kennedys. yes, it’s been one of those days!.
I’m not much of a Punk fan per se, i just enjoy my music. I have my moments. =)
ok, let’s get down to bussiness..
I was selected by a lovely Blogger: Gabbi (which, if you have not read, you totally should!) to continue on this lovely mission of Liebster Award – Spreading the Joy. IMHPV this is basically a friendship project (?) in which you get to know your favorite bloggers a bit more by answering a game of questions. Am i mumbling again? yeah maybe I am, ok on we go:
Liebster Award Rules:
Let me wake the hamster in my brain.
phew! this was fun!! I hope someone eventually reads it..
I might have to get back to you on this, due to the fact I’m new here and I’m still exploring The-Depths-of-the-WordPress world.
😉
YAY that was fun!!
I hope to hear from you, lovely imaginary friends!
xx
cArOliNe
it’s still my birthday
so this how my day revealed..
–PendingEdit
xx
This image would describe us..this image could’ve served as our flag..we’re like this is my memories.. we’re like this in my mind.
Time & again i find myself traveling down MemoryLane, when we talked about everything and nothing at all, that was ok, and this used to be us: inseparable, always living inside our own little world for two, awkward to outsiders, amazingly weird together.
So, what happened now? Why’s everything changed? Why is it there’s nothing there where we left it? (*sigh* we left it..)
..’we left it’ screams my mind. That seems to be the recurring-coherent-obvious-logical answer-thing peaking through my mind.. We left it to get dust, we left it all alone, we turned away and left our friendship on its own. We didn’t mind coming back to check upon it, you tried once, i wasn’t ready, i tried once, i wasn’t ready.
It’s not forgotten, im sure it never has been, we just kept going different ways, never forgetting but never coming back, not in the time we needed, never like the times we had.
Now years later we finally stop, we now turn back, only to find that same old frienship, still there, right were we left it. Barely alive, so very different now, …still it’s carried us in time.
In a way it’s all different, in a way it’s all the same.
We’re now trying to go back.
I just wish i knew how.
Even though time has passed,
you’ve never left my mind.
and if Time’s all we’ve shared,
Time won’t tear us apart.
I’ll always have my memories,
You’ll always be my BestFriend..
xx
::cArO::
This came out..
Italo Calvino said: The more enlightened our houses are, the more their walls ooze ghosts.
Image credit: “love Don’t live here anymore…” – © 2009 Robb North – made available under Attribution 2.0 Generic
sometimes i feel just like that house, (used to be a home), but love don’t live here anymore..
Still a home is so much more, a home is where you are in peace with yourself, i am who i am and it is enough, it is ok.
I am currently trying to be that home, and i have always had a pretty clear image in the back of my mind of just how i want that home to be; i want it to be me, i want it to feel mine, fresh, open, loving.. In a way just like this house, the foundation is still there, the freshness, the open world, the air, the grass, the …Life!
’tis just me